Jax Taylor Says He Would 'Take Drugs for 2 Hours and Turn My Mind Off' Before Bipolar Diagnosis

Jax Taylor shared that he utilized to trust connected narcotics and intoxicant to “shut my encephalon off” earlier he was diagnosed pinch bipolar disorder.

The Vanderpump Rules alum explained to impermanent Jason Tartick that he suspected thing was wrong, but utilized to “sweep it nether nan rug” connected nan Thursday, May 8, section of his podcast In nan Mind of Jax Taylor. “I ne'er sewage checked. Did I cognize I had thing incorrect pinch maine for years?" he asked. "Absolutely.”

Taylor, 45, told Tartick, 36, that it wasn’t until he went to rehab past July to activity connected his intelligence wellness struggles that “the doctors really sewage into my encephalon because I was conscionable connected nan ground.”

“I'm like, ‘Something is f------- incorrect pinch me. Something is wrong. I'm flying disconnected nan handle. I'm angry. I'm easy triggered,’" he explained.

“I'm happy 1 minute. I'm sad nan adjacent minute. And there's perfectly nary logic to beryllium this measurement because connected paper, I person it all. Home, cars, toys, patient child, patient wife,” said Taylor, who shares son Cruz, 4, pinch ex-wife, Brittany Cartwright.

At nan clip for Taylor, “It was really, really bad, man. My ego sewage successful nan measurement of maine ... Drugs and intoxicant were a problem, but they weren't the problem. I utilized narcotics and intoxicant to disguise each my problems. Validation, insecurity, ego, manipulation, narcissism, each these things that group told me, anger issues ... my family issues.”

In nan past, Taylor shared that he would do narcotics aliases portion recreationally “because it was fun.”

“I was dealing pinch my friends, anger, arguments pinch Brittany. I would say, f— that. I'm gonna return narcotics for 2 hours aliases immoderate and move my mind off. And that's why I turned to intoxicant and narcotics heavily. “

He said that it wasn’t until he realized “my kid was astatine stake” that he “needed to surrender myself.”

Last September, The Valley star announced that he’d been diagnosed pinch bipolar disorder, on pinch PTSD, penning connected Instagram: “I’ve travel location to my boy pinch a caller recovered consciousness of peace. I’d beryllium lying if I said I wasn’t frightened for nan early but my attraction is conscionable trying to beryllium a amended type of myself than I was yesterday. Mental wellness is simply a lifelong conflict of not letting it power you but alternatively you learning to power it." 

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Taylor reiterated that sentiment to Tartick Thursday, saying, “Do I person a batch of activity to do? Absolutely. And I'm gonna person activity to do for nan remainder of my life … That's conscionable my issues. But you cognize what? It was a immense wake-up call.”