Kristin Cavallari Opens Up About the Aftermath of 'Unfair' Drug Use Allegations Against Her on “The Hills ”(Exclusive)

Kristin Cavallari is looking backmost connected immoderate of nan biggest moments from her reality career, and she admits she made immoderate mistakes. 

The 38-year-old reality seasoned first deed screens successful MTV’s 2004 series Laguna Beach: The Real Orange County. The show was spun disconnected into The Hills, pursuing Cavallari’s castmate Lauren Conrad. When Conrad, 39, near nan show, Cavallari joined successful play 5 successful 2009 and continued for nan show’s last season. In 2018, she returned pinch Very Cavallari, and this summertime she returns to nan mini screen successful E!’s Honestly Cavallari: The Headline Tour, which follows a unrecorded circuit of her podcast.

Cavallari said to PEOPLE for an section of "Reality Rewatch," successful which she collapsed down immoderate of nan buzziest moments from her clip connected TV. That included nan play 6 premiere of The Hills, wherever her castmates warned her astir superior rumors going around. Eventually, they show her, “Everybody’s saying that you’re doing drugs.”

Cavallari told PEOPLE, “I’ve talked astir it a cardinal times, but it’s — 1 of nan producers bribed nan girls pinch a Birkin container to telephone maine retired connected camera for doing drugs.” The prima has made those claims galore times, including successful a 2016 question and reply pinch Us Weekly. MTV and her castmates person ne'er commented connected nan allegation. 

“I conscionable felt for illustration that was really unfair,” Cavallari said of nan drama. “It sewage really messy. All of our lawyers sewage involved. I threatened to discontinue nan show astatine 1 point. It was conscionable really bad. And I was a young kid. I’m not saying I was perfect.”

Cavallari said that looking astatine nan play now, she has a different perspective. “It took maine years to really return a difficult look successful nan reflector and recognize what I could person done otherwise to debar that,” she explained. “For years, I blamed different people. And yet erstwhile I could return accountability and ownership for that is erstwhile I could free myself from it.”

“It’s portion of my journey, but it was difficult for maine to spell done it astatine nan time,” she added.

Back successful May, Cavallari opened up to PEOPLE astir her determination to return to reality TV. "I cognize I've said a 1000 times that I would ne'er spell backmost to reality TV," she shared. "This worked retired really good for maine because I was already going connected a podcast tour, and truthful I conscionable thought, if cameras want to travel along, I'm already doing it. It conscionable really benignant of people fresh into my life." The bid ended up being her "favorite acquisition connected a show.”

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"[It's] nan only show that I've done wherever I tin opportunity it was 100% authentic. It was real. It was nan astir existent show I've ever done, and that was a really enjoyable experience," she said of her caller show.

Honestly Cavallari airs Wednesdays astatine 10 p.m. ET connected E!